Growing up I was like most kids. I loved Halloween for the candy and the costumes. It was always so much fun trying to figure out who I wanted to be and how much sugar I could get my hands on. As I got older it lost some of it's appeal but I still enjoyed it. I was never the teenager that went to costume parties so I lost myself in my younger sister's enjoyment of the holiday.
When I found my religion I found a new love for today. Samhain, the Wiccan new year. Its a day of new beginnings for me. I still loved the costumes and candy but I also found I loved new aspects of myself in that day because of my religion.
Today though was a new beginning of a different kind. Today I got to take my beautiful blessing and the world's cutest dinosaur, my son Angel, trick or treating with my husband. Today I celebrated the day with my family. I got that joy back I had as a kid. And even though Angel had no earthly idea what was going on and can't eat any of the candy he got I know today was important for my family.
Five years ago I never imagined I would have this experience in my memories. To walk about around army post housing with my husband carrying our almost ten-month-old is a dream come true for me. Watching my little boy stare at all the strange beings walking around was so funny. Seeing my husband take so much pride in how cute our son looked was so touching. Knowing they are my family is my miracle.
Though recently I have lost touch with my religion, today reminded me why I have faith in my beliefs. I am going to make an effort to find my way back to my beliefs and to show gratitude for those that control our fates. They gave me this beautiful blessing that was tonight after all.
Happy Halloween. Happy Samhain. Blessed Be!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
One step at a time
So here we are four years after the accident that changed my life. The doctor says there is no medical reason for the pain I have been experiencing and since the pain has past I'm going to chalk it up to a passing injury. Maybe I pulled something or hurt it in a way I didn't realize. Regardless, I'm feeling better now and that's the most important thing.
I did learn a few things. One is that the smaller bone on the outside of my leg never healed. Funny, the surgeon told me it would heal without them having to do anything. I'm not worried though because it's not a weight-bearing bone. I also learned that my ankle has begun to show signs of ware. Kind of like when your tires start to lose their tread. I guess my ankle is losing some of it's tread. I knew something like that was a possibility. You don't do the kind of damage I did and not have long term consequences.
The good news is I am starting physical therapy next week. I need my mobility and my strength back because with every passing day Angel gets closer and closer to walking. In no time I'm going to be chasing my little boy around like crazy and I won't miss out on that because of a stupid injury.
I'm excited about this. I'm excited about being able to walk without pain, to run around the park, to be normal again. Or maybe not completely normal but very close. I'm excited to be a mom who has fun with her little boy.
Things are looking up for me. I may have my bad days just like anyone else but things are definitely looking up. I just have to take it one step at a time.
I did learn a few things. One is that the smaller bone on the outside of my leg never healed. Funny, the surgeon told me it would heal without them having to do anything. I'm not worried though because it's not a weight-bearing bone. I also learned that my ankle has begun to show signs of ware. Kind of like when your tires start to lose their tread. I guess my ankle is losing some of it's tread. I knew something like that was a possibility. You don't do the kind of damage I did and not have long term consequences.
The good news is I am starting physical therapy next week. I need my mobility and my strength back because with every passing day Angel gets closer and closer to walking. In no time I'm going to be chasing my little boy around like crazy and I won't miss out on that because of a stupid injury.
I'm excited about this. I'm excited about being able to walk without pain, to run around the park, to be normal again. Or maybe not completely normal but very close. I'm excited to be a mom who has fun with her little boy.
Things are looking up for me. I may have my bad days just like anyone else but things are definitely looking up. I just have to take it one step at a time.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Don't blink
Wow, I can't believe it has been a month since my last blog. My apologizes to anyone following and may have missed my ramblings.
So much has happened in the last month I'm not sure where to begin.
My wonderful husband and I celebrated two years of marriage on October 1st. My mom came down for the weekend with my adorable niece and stayed with our son so we could have a weekend together. We booked a room at the Riverstreet Inn in Savannah, GA and had a romantic getaway. Just the two of us in a historic city, staying in a beautiful room, spending some much needed time together. It was wonderful. I still can't believe it has been two years already. Seems like just yesterday we were standing in the depressing room in front of a complete stranger committing to words neither one of us remember even hearing. We took the plunge in the simplest form because he was leaving in two weeks for basic training. Some day there may be a grand affair to celebrate the life we have built together, but on that day two years ago all we needed was each other. That's still true today. My husband always says it is me and him against the world. Well now it is me, him and Angel against the world but the feeling is still the same. It's been a crazy two years with a lot of ups and downs and some life changing changes. We've hung in there and made it through. I couldn't ask for a better man to spend my life with. Especially since I never thought I would spend it with anyone at all. My husband is my hero in every sense of the word. Two years down and this is only the beginning.
My beautiful little boy has acquired three words and he is only nine months old. Momma (of course), Dada (though that's not what we call my husband), and Papa (which is suppose to be Papi but we are working on that). We are working on Lieu (our dog and she is also Angel's best friend), more, and night-night. He is also starting to sign the world milk which makes me very happy.
Angel has also mastered crawling and is now crab walking and pulling up. He will even walk while holding on to my hands. While I am the proudest mom ever at all of these new accomplishments I am just a little sad at how fast it has all happened. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was sleeping on the couch with my little Snuggle Bear curled up on top of me? He just came home and already he is running for the door it feels like. Being a mom takes everything you have and takes it fast, but oh, the outcome is so worth it.
My husband found out his reenlistment option opens up in January. That means in that in less then six months we could be PCSing (moving for civilians) to another post. My husband desperately wants to go to Hawaii. His oldest brother was stationed there and is still there with his wife and daughter. Vinnie is the only one Nick is still close with in his family and it would mean a lot for them to be able to reconnect on a more basic face to face level. Not to mention I would love to meet my niece Kairi and have them meet Angel. At the same time the thought of leaving all of my family and going so far away is hard. I know this comes with being an army wife but that doesn't mean it is easy. We will see what happens in January.
Last week I had a CT scan done on my leg. The pain had actually stopped for about a week but oddly enough came back after the scan. I have a doctor's appointment on the 24th to discuss the results and see what is going on. Maybe I can actually get some help this time around.
Halloween is a week away and my little boy will spend his first Halloween as a dinosaur. I'm trying to teach him to say "roar" but I don't know if that going to happen in time. Then right around the corner is Thanksgiving which we will be going back to North Carolina for. Following very close behind is my husband's 24th birthday, my 33rd birthday, Angel's first Christmas, New Year's, and then my baby will be a year old on January 2nd.
Its flying by, time. I blinked two years of marriage went by. I glanced and my newborn is crawling across the room. I'm taking a deep breath and holding on tight to the ride I'm on. It's better then any amusement park in the world.
So much has happened in the last month I'm not sure where to begin.
My wonderful husband and I celebrated two years of marriage on October 1st. My mom came down for the weekend with my adorable niece and stayed with our son so we could have a weekend together. We booked a room at the Riverstreet Inn in Savannah, GA and had a romantic getaway. Just the two of us in a historic city, staying in a beautiful room, spending some much needed time together. It was wonderful. I still can't believe it has been two years already. Seems like just yesterday we were standing in the depressing room in front of a complete stranger committing to words neither one of us remember even hearing. We took the plunge in the simplest form because he was leaving in two weeks for basic training. Some day there may be a grand affair to celebrate the life we have built together, but on that day two years ago all we needed was each other. That's still true today. My husband always says it is me and him against the world. Well now it is me, him and Angel against the world but the feeling is still the same. It's been a crazy two years with a lot of ups and downs and some life changing changes. We've hung in there and made it through. I couldn't ask for a better man to spend my life with. Especially since I never thought I would spend it with anyone at all. My husband is my hero in every sense of the word. Two years down and this is only the beginning.
My beautiful little boy has acquired three words and he is only nine months old. Momma (of course), Dada (though that's not what we call my husband), and Papa (which is suppose to be Papi but we are working on that). We are working on Lieu (our dog and she is also Angel's best friend), more, and night-night. He is also starting to sign the world milk which makes me very happy.
Angel has also mastered crawling and is now crab walking and pulling up. He will even walk while holding on to my hands. While I am the proudest mom ever at all of these new accomplishments I am just a little sad at how fast it has all happened. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was sleeping on the couch with my little Snuggle Bear curled up on top of me? He just came home and already he is running for the door it feels like. Being a mom takes everything you have and takes it fast, but oh, the outcome is so worth it.
My husband found out his reenlistment option opens up in January. That means in that in less then six months we could be PCSing (moving for civilians) to another post. My husband desperately wants to go to Hawaii. His oldest brother was stationed there and is still there with his wife and daughter. Vinnie is the only one Nick is still close with in his family and it would mean a lot for them to be able to reconnect on a more basic face to face level. Not to mention I would love to meet my niece Kairi and have them meet Angel. At the same time the thought of leaving all of my family and going so far away is hard. I know this comes with being an army wife but that doesn't mean it is easy. We will see what happens in January.
Last week I had a CT scan done on my leg. The pain had actually stopped for about a week but oddly enough came back after the scan. I have a doctor's appointment on the 24th to discuss the results and see what is going on. Maybe I can actually get some help this time around.
Halloween is a week away and my little boy will spend his first Halloween as a dinosaur. I'm trying to teach him to say "roar" but I don't know if that going to happen in time. Then right around the corner is Thanksgiving which we will be going back to North Carolina for. Following very close behind is my husband's 24th birthday, my 33rd birthday, Angel's first Christmas, New Year's, and then my baby will be a year old on January 2nd.
Its flying by, time. I blinked two years of marriage went by. I glanced and my newborn is crawling across the room. I'm taking a deep breath and holding on tight to the ride I'm on. It's better then any amusement park in the world.
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